My Life

2006-07-08T04:18:00.000-07:00

last memories

well i'm just here to annouce that this will be the last blog entry for this blog...i really like this url but unfortunately i wont be keeping it...i'm really sick of people posting nasty comments on my tag board...i usually remove them but i cant be bothered to do it anymore...

those interested in reading my blog u will know how to contact me 4 the new url...if i dont give it to u = i dont trust u...

2006-07-07T08:22:00.000-07:00

my wallet was pick pocketed...fuck

end of story...

2006-07-02T04:56:00.000-07:00

today was the worst day of my short life. england were eliminated from the world cupp thru penalty kicks...the worst part was they played really2 well...was telling kenneth n chun at the bbq that i didnt think england was going to win the world cup but deep inside i trully2 wanted to c them win the trophy...they were outstanding this morning against an average portugal side save their outstanding goal keeper...

the sad part was that rooney got sent off by the argentinian refree...my heart really broke...i thought the most he would have gotten a yellow card for the pushing incident but it was a damn red...people all around the stadium were bloody shock by it...i mean really...beckham was clearly not fully fit...it was so sad considering this is becks n neville's last world cup...james and campbell too...plus those players who r around 28-30 yrs od age...no one knows wat's going to happen in 4 yrs time n playing in south africa? i heard temps sores to 37 degress in the summer...english player will just melt...

my sis thinks maybe the next generation of beckhams will bring the trophy home for england...so how about it brooklyn, romeo n cruz? world cup 2018 or euro 2020?

ok trully depressed now

2006-06-17T20:35:00.000-07:00

it's 11.30am on sunday morning...i'm damned hungry...argh...

well thanks to the world cup my whole life has turned upside down...sleeping at 5...waking up at 10...not good...not good...

siblings coming back on the 26th...i'll be expecting lots of presents ya....shameless...that reminds me that i need to go to library and pick up my travel books...suppose to plan my end of year trip now cos when school reopens there'll be no time n i'm leaving the very next day after the last day of attachment...

cant wait to get out of this damn freaking country...

cyn wil definitely lend u the books...romancelah...so u'll like...but it's like adult romance...so there's like several u know wat scenes....and i really mean several in one book...so there's like 5 books...so ya...n csi cds...i keep on forgetting to pass 2 u...

oh n grey's anatomy really2 rocks...haha...i knew alex was a good guy deep inside n he really loves izzie n i think he really cares but he just has macho exterior about him...i dont think izzie would've fallen for danny if alex wasnt such an ass...mcdreamy is such an ass...how can he not live his wife...he clearly doesnt love her plus she doesnt love him...she loves mark...n yes mark is damn cute...hahaha...mcsteamy ya...poor meredith...she really gets a lot of shit...i think she'll be a great surgeon one day...cant wait for season 3.

i think i really know wat i want now...thanks to someone...u've really made me realise what i really2 want in my life...wat i want to achieve, where i want to go, where i'm suppose to be n why i'm here...ambition...definitely that's what i have right now...

2006-06-07T21:00:00.000-07:00

well...havent blogged in a while...

first thing first...wendy me glad u r happier n more relieved now...

joycelyn n pauline...hope u guys having great time in UK...joycelyn...must go to King Cross Station and visit platform 9 and 3/4 ya...take picture for me...and dont forget the yummy person ya...

jun...hope u enjoying work...sounds high class man...

the rest...wat u all up to anyway...

well hols for me have benn waking and sleeping, eating, visit grandma, playstation...yup that's about it...the books i ordered form US r coming soon...damn happy...so that's 4 books that'll keep me entertained for 4 days...might as well

world cup is coming people...yeay!!!!i'm so damn happy cos now at least from 9pm-5am i have something to do...so the sleeping time will be reversed...and guess wat's the best part...i get to watch every bloody game for free...from the comforts of my own home...unlike u starhub people who have to pay for sports package and on top of that u have to pay some more money to watch all the games...some people's rationale...i dont want to miss any brazil or england matches...i mean how stupid can they be...starhub for certain will show u those games...they're like the bigger teams...i mean costa rica vs ecuador not something u would regret not watching rite...

well anyway...

10/6

12am germany vs costa rica
3am poland vs ecuador
9pm eng vs paraguay

guess which game i'll be watching...only the last one...the other 2 is seriously a joke...

11/6

12am trinidad vs sweden
3am argentina vs ivory coast
9pm serbia vs holland

hmmm....c first lah

the stupidest thing i ever read was in the papers yesterday about how this paraguay player is going on and on about every single game they play they r thinking about england...i'm like dude they're not the only team u playing u know...how stupid can they get...ok i'm bias i know...haha

honestly every single team has a chance of winning u know...just depends on their luck and their desire...i think heart and mind is very impt...

2006-05-19T06:36:00.000-07:00

well the first week at sgh has just passed...overall wat could have been a good week has turned out to be bad cos of 2 people...

it's a long story n i dont not wish to talk about it anymore...i want to put it behind me...

hopefully things will get better...sigh

i hate my life

really x infinity hate my life

2006-05-09T05:15:00.000-07:00

i'm seriously the world's biggest asshole...cant be compared to anyone...

a couple of mths ago the media reported the death of a baby...he was only a month's old...plus there was huge controversy cos the ambulance was blocked by some barrier...

being the asshole that i am i didnt bother to read the papers or watch the news...just heard it in passing...

well today's TODAY paper carried a report of his death after the autopsy result was made known...n today i actually bothered to read the paper...i nearly died when i read the baby's name...his age plus the inclusion of his mother's name made me know that it was my dear friend's nephew...

i just cried when i read it...such a lousy friend...smsed my fren to apologise n she was really sweet about it...i'm such a loser...

2006-05-07T03:26:00.000-07:00

had the best week of my life at kkh...i was smiling like an idiot practically the whole week...i mean i was so freaking happy to be there...i was actually quite sad that i only got to spend 4 days there...the kids were all sooooooo wonderful...i was extremely contented to work there...

well anyway after the high of kk i'm going to geylang...heaven n hell...haha...

stay tuned...hehe

2006-04-30T04:47:00.000-07:00

i have four weeks of attachment left and i feel so drained and tired...sigh...hate writing reports...plus i hate getting confused by all the radiographers on insiting different reasons for the technical details...i mean u people really confuse me...so today after reaching home, i opened bushong and got all the information i wanted...even ****** is wrong loh...bloody hell...

went shopping with mummy yesterday...bought myself 3 new tops for work...

i noticed that everytime i walked pass a posb atm or passbook update machine there were long lines of people waiting to get hold of their red packet from the govt...how nice for them...bad luck for 85 babys...so near yet so far...sigh...

speaking of banks, i finally used my debit card to buy things online...so happy...had to order 5 story books from america cos they're like out of print books...n they only cost me about S$35 plus shipping...cheap ah...

2006-04-29T06:39:00.000-07:00

well we're left with 4 weeks of attachment...just realised i' only getting 4 days at kk next wk bcos of labour day and 4 days at geylang cos of vesak day...really looking forward to going to kk and playing with the children...actually there r tons in nuh too...

on friday i nearly cried during attachment bcos if the condition of my patient...he's my bro's age...it was so pitiful i asked regine to do the case for me...i couldnt even stay in the room...sigh...my eyes actually welled up with tears...sigh x 1 000 000 000

2006-04-14T04:09:00.000-07:00

bloody exams r finally over...pure jubilation...need to catch up with things

will blog about the long weekend soon

2006-04-08T01:15:00.000-07:00

pathology paper

1. bony complications of fractures
-bone complications
-joint complications

2. intracranial hematomas
- types of skull fractures
-extradural hematomas
-subdural hematomas (acute and chronic)

3.renal stones
-predisposing factors
-pathogenesis
-clinical features
-complications
-radiological investigations

enjoy!!!!

2006-04-07T21:56:00.000-07:00

well so 2 papers are over...no more presentations...left with radiography, patho and behavioural sc...really worried about radiography and behavioural sc...cos there r like no hints!!!!dielah...well rad anat is finally over...paper i was dreading most...chin said he's taking 2-4 quizes...most likely 4 cos the weightage is like 40% for the quizes...

apparently amarjit said we all did well for imaging...that's welcoming news...

really put in a lot more effort this semester compared to last semester when i did really badly and ended up with a lot of c and d...it actually led to a phone call from amajit and a conversion with ho..."we see a lot of potential in u...we expect u to do well...we r certain u have the capabilities...do not disappoint us...please study hard...we always receive good feedback when u go out to clinicals...we expect the same from ur studies...must be good at both..."

imagine having that hanging over u for the rest of the course...sigh...

well off to study now...bye2...

2006-04-03T06:50:00.000-07:00

been a long stressful semesters with weekly tests, presentations and now exams...i really apologise to my group members for snapping at u guys today...i'm sorry for saying "presentation is on wednesday and we r not prepared"...sorry that it came out harshly...n after i said it there was absolute silence...really sorry...very rude of me...especially to cynthia who unfortunately was in the middle of presenting...

well...end of a depressing saga...on to the next one...

finally opened my uob tx account...cant wait to get my debit cards so i can start ordering books that i cant find online...

anyway havent been teaching tuition for weeks...first the kid came down with chicken pox...then his sister no the mother has it too!!!!not permitted by the father to come cos i havent gotten chicken pox yet...but even then, i have ben exposed to the disease numerous times growing up with various relatives getting it but somehow or another me and my siblings have been spared...talk about sheer dumb luck

2006-03-29T02:34:00.000-08:00

dont know if most people know this...but there's a solar eclipse happening today...dont think we'll be able to c it...it's passing thru libya n central asia i think...not very sure...read it in the papers some time back...maybe there's something about it today...but havent read straits times today...

2006-03-25T05:53:00.000-08:00

have u ever reached a point in ur life when u just dont know where u r heading?it's like u r so confused of wat to do...so unsure if u r making the right decisions...sometimes u just wish u can change things...things about urself...things that u did but wished u didnt do?

u know how people always say that there's nothing about them that they would change...i wish i could be that person...there r so many things that i'm just not happy about...the state of my hair...my eyes( too droopy)...my tummy, my hips, my thighs and my butt...they're like super disgusting...

i wish i could be a nicer person...someone who was more thoughtful and caring...i wish i could shut my mouth sometimes...sometimes we say things b4 we think or we say things but we dont mean them...but i've come to realise that even if we dont mean them they do hurt...i try not to take things personally...try to think it as a joke...but i've come to realise it's that easy at all...

2006-03-17T07:09:00.000-08:00

i've been eating and eating this pass few days...very bad...so unhealthy...not controlling my urges and hunger pangs...just filling up my stomach and keeping it warm and happy...

well finally cleared our tests for this week...

really miss my sister loads...but i guess since i love her a lot i must learn to let her go and let her grow up...will go visit her during her winter breaks and explore tasmania and melbourne...i've always loved australia although i've only been to that country once...maybe because i love them when it comes to sporting events n i dont want to support america cos they're like the big bully...haha...cruel me...

more tmr

2006-03-14T05:44:00.000-08:00

i wish the ground could just open up and swallow me....

i wont have to deal with parents, siblings, friends, exams, school work and the future

i really am about to burst...i really hate my family right now and they cant even see it...they are self-centred selfish people who dont hink about other people but themselves...it's ok if i'm unhappy and it's ok if wat i want i dont get as long as they r happy...

i hate going to school...it's just a fucked up far place and i hate wasting 4 hours of my life every day walking to the bus stop, wait for the bus, walk in to school, walk to the bus interchange, wait for the bus and walk in to my house...do my parents even care??!!!obviously not!!!they've made so many empty promises to me i dont trust anything they say anymore...

i hate thinking about the future...it's so hard to try and remain positive and tell urself not to worry that there r enough jobs out there when u graduate and all u get get r gloomy faces who have no hope and doesnt actually help u know...i hate seeing good friends back stab each other and pretend that all is nice and ok on the surface when they r doing unbelievable things to each other without the other knowing...

it's a sad world we live in...i wish i could just disappear...

2006-02-26T23:00:00.000-08:00

went on a lovely spa trip on sunday...it was freaking worth it...spent only S$100...chun got u the card n brochure like u requested...pass ot 2 u on thurs when i c u...it's damn nice...i slept throughout the whole thing...it was that freaking good!!!!!

2006-02-18T19:28:00.000-08:00

It's time I stopped thinking about what others want or expect from me and just live my life the way I want. this is my life I should dictate it. it shouldn't be about people telling u wat to do or wat people expect about u. if they truly love u they’ll respect the choices u make.

It upsets me because I feel that u r trying to get rid of me as quickly as possible. its like u love me the least. I don’t want to leave now. I'll leave eventually but let it at my own time and my own terms. I’m not ready.

I have so much I wanna do with my life and I want it to be my own time. I wan to explore the world by myself on my own terms so I can sit back one day and reflect that
"hey, that was my time. I did it for me"

I’m not old enough right now. I still have lots to learn and I wanna learn it at my own pace not because I’ve been thrown into it.

I regret the answer I gave u. y? because I didn’t think through before I made my decision. I said it without thinking and I gave an answer that I thought would make everyone happy. Guess what, everyone is happy but I’m not.

If u really know me as a person u would know that I’m upset and I don’t want this but I guess u r not really listening r u…

I have so many things I’ve yet to accomplish…And now that I’m young I wanna accomplish them…I know in my heart that being tied down wont make my dreams come true.

So I’m going to fight this time because at the end of the day it’s about time I placed me before others.

2006-02-11T19:38:00.000-08:00

first week of attachment has ended and i'm just so tired...came back from wedding in muar yesterday...i'm so sleepy...woke up at 11 today with a dry throat..no pain...hopefully no pain will come...suppose to teach tuition today but so busy got so many things to do...sigh...think will cancel and make up with 2 lessons next week...most viable option i have now...

well gtg...loads to do...sigh2...

2006-02-05T07:45:00.000-08:00

2006-01-31T01:27:00.000-08:00

just realised that the 2 motorola phones i wanted is only tri band and not quad band...sigh2...so so so sad...so if i really want a quad band phone i'll have to consider other phones...well that leaves the motorola v3, v3i and samsung d600c...so depending on the price of the phones when my plan is available for upgrade i'll decide then...sigh...still very sad...well if there is seriously going to be the light blue version of the v3 it wont be bad after all...

2006-01-24T07:19:00.000-08:00

2006-01-20T19:18:00.000-08:00

ok here is a list if movies that i have piled up and i havent had the time to caught...

1.sin city
2.the exorcism of emily rose
3.exorcist the begining
4.saw2
5.a history of violence
6.dark water
7.house of wax
8.into the blue
9.flightplan
10.elizabethtown
11.the descent

argh...no time...

after i settled everything and went home yesterday, i went to cut my hair...so thanks to the blow dry my hair is like str8...she said it'll go back curly after i wash it...so when my air is wavy it actually resembles my sisters hair which looks wavy after her straightening session...i really like the treatment she used on my hair after the wash...it made my hair super soft...must ask her wat it is.she's actually suprised that my hair is still wavy cos it has been 4 mths already...she thought it would have been like str8...haha...didnt have much cut...just told her to trim the ends and she layered my hair for me...so that's about it...

accompanied my siblings to get their super huge luggage...managed to buy my skipping rope and a new kappa bag also...it's super nice and comfy to carry...my mum acually agreed to pay for it...she wanted to get the adidas one for herself but it was like super ex...almost $60...will get it for her sometime.

then went to check out some new phones...honestly looking at all the new mototrola phones, i didnt like any of them...the pebl was nice but so unfunctional, the blue v3 wasnt nice at all...the black one still the nicest...the slim l6 and l7 look better in pics...dissapointing...there's the v3i, new phone, it is not a 3g phone...just upgraded the features of the old v3 and only comes in one colour...the v3i isnt that bad...

as for samsung i still think d500c is their nicest phone...the newer version, d600c, was a disappointment...if u c it by itslef it's actually nice...but once u put it next to the d500c, u'll be saying to urself that the d600c is big and bulky and there's not much features changed...just an upgrade...

still eagerly awaiting the motorola v3x...it's a 3g version of the v3...or the motorola e1070...both phones r 3g phones...they've been lauch in the uk just recently...i was told to wait bet 1-3 mths or the most 5 mths for the phones to reach s'pore...so eagerly anticipating...

as for nokia...the only nice phone is n70
and sony ericsson...k750i

2006-01-17T04:40:00.000-08:00

feeling so many different emotions right now...but most of all i just feel like crying...so much things kept inside that i really cant seem to control...so when i reached home today after external lect i had a cry it out session...but somehow that session did nt help...i'm so upset about so many things right now...sadly the cause of it i cant share with anyone...y?because i know that if i say anything the problem would probably just get worst...

i'm just sick and tired of everything right now...i'm so upset cos there r those out there who trully do not think when they say something...sure u might say it in a joking manner but please think first before u say anything...this is not something that happen suddenly...this has been going on for months...what's u problem?y must u always find fault with me?y must u go around saying things about me?of cos i'll hear about them cos unlike u i trully have friends who'll stick with me thru thick and thin (evil clan members)

if u r trully my friend then u would definitely know me right?then u would obviously know that i'm a sensitive person and things upset me easily and u should know that i like to think too much and i like to have control over everything in my life...

2006-01-07T20:21:00.000-08:00

hey peeps...take care of your health ok...cos ur nothing without ur health...u can have all the money in the world but still it doesnt gurantee u anything...if u go c a doctor for a problem and u still dont get well after a second consultation maybe going to the hospital isnt a bad idea...dont wait till it's too late or till ur body tells u that's wat u need to do...life is too short ok...we dont need to say good bye before then...

the weather hasnt been to my taste lately...so wet and gloomy...need to start running again to prepare for physical fitness test...didnt run since god only knows when..so a little sunshine and dry floors would be really nice...

well then...will be planning several window shopping trips before cny...after cny when there's more sales will go n get this stuff...haha...life is good...

2006-01-01T04:34:00.000-08:00

happy new year everybody...hope u guys had a wonderfull 2005 and may u people have a blessed 2006...

the year has really gone by really quickly...another 1 and a half years and we'll be saying goodbye to nyp...really looking forward to having a career, paying bills, balancing my savings and paying taxes(hopefully wont have to do that for the time being)...

well some people have been sharing with me their new year resolutions...well mine aren't really new year resolutions but more of things i hope to achieve before i die...haha

1. finish studying, get a good career and earn a stable income
2. invest in the right things so i can c my money grow...haha...how typical...
3. maintain lasting relationships with my sec and jc frens..
4. celebrate my 21st birthday in style...big2 party to invite and my family and friends...
5. i wanna c the world...really would love to travel
6. save more money...so i can really shop after christmas and chinese new year...best times to shop
7. watch all the vcds that i've bought and kept in one corner...really starting to pile up...
8. study hard and get a better gpa...not far from my reach...
9. go to aussie and get my degree...really wanna do this...
10. earn good money so that i can afford a car within 2 years of starting work...must find rich husband...then wont have to wait...haha
11. earn good money so that i can afford my own place by the time i get married...must find rich husband...haha...thank god there's such a thing as cpf...
12. take care of my health...
13. love myself more...
14. wanna drive an expensive car...but i rather use the money that i save by buying a more affordable car and travel...
15. shopping trip to bangkok/malaysia/indonesia every year...

oh well let's enjoy wat's present today...

shopping trip planned for tmr!!!!haha

2005-12-24T06:55:00.000-08:00

really sorry for the lack of updates...just too sleepy and tired to type anything now...dont like staring at the computer screen...
anyway happy holidays...

btw...time table is out in e-services...but i have asked mr ho to forward us the simplified version...so easier for us to read

2005-12-11T01:59:00.000-08:00

well it has been a relatively quiet weekend...enjoying my time cathcing up with movies that i've wanted to watch...

been doing a lot of thinking this pass few days...my friend and i were trying to sum up our year...i was telling her mine hasnt been a good one...got fooled twice...sigh...life is a roller coaster...betrayal by friends...saw my loved ones loose their love ones...many emotional ups and downs...she asked me at that moment wat was i feeling...i told her empty...been feeling that way for sometime...she asked me when i started feeling like this...smiles and says i dont know...but in truth i was lying to her...been feeling like this since the start of 2005...at times i do feel happy and sad...but most of the time i feel empty and i'm my own little world with my own little thoughts...thinking things through...i've been asking myself the same question every day since the start of the year...should i've done things differently...was there anything i should have done to make things better...then i realised make things better for who?my self of cos...maybe by making things better for everyone else instead i could be happy...to that i dont know the answer...

i was telling my fren about wat happened at cgh...she told wat doesnt kill u only makes u stronger...true...but honestly the experience at cgh has left a bitter taste in my mouth...i gues by sucking up u can actually go far in this industry...sad but through...people don c pass the cheaters and liars...wat should i do suck it up and go on? honestly part of me wonders y i'm even doing this...i'm just so disappointed in people...they would do anything to get far...wonder how they can sleep at night...no moral values...

got selected for mentor leadership camp this year...to go back as a team leader...sadly it clashes with clinicals and i wasnt given early warning by the mentor lecturer or i could have made some arrangements with mr ho...well that's all said and done...he's on leave now...

went to dye my hair again yesterday...the roots were showing and they were ugly...the stylist choose a colour to match my roots so it'll groe out nicely...very happy...

2005-12-05T02:29:00.000-08:00

well today has been an ok day...finally did my elusive(spelling?) clavicle...and finally settled on my case study...will be doing on renal stones...happy happy...catching chicken little late on friday...happy happy

2005-12-02T04:52:00.000-08:00

well today concludes the first week of attachments...4 more weeks to go and it's back to school...i really can't wait to graduate...there's so many things that i still need to do...looking forward to the day when i can just sit back and think to myself...yup u did good...

when u come to think of it...we r graduating really really soon and i'm really looking forward to the last paper of the 3rd year...been doing a lot of thinking of wat i wanna do next...most definitely going to go get my degree...not sure where yet...will apply to both uk and aus...will then think it through when all the available optons have been set in front of me...

taking the graduate medical school exams next march...haha super early considering if i do go on to do medicine it'll be only in june 2007 on january 2008...the test is going to cost a freaking S$700...sigh...will study hard for it...hopefully will do well and wont have to retake it...the test is going to test everything...from your ability in all three sciences to ur ability in writing and communicating...

dont know why but today was a good day for me...will blog about it tmr...(smiles to myself)

2005-12-01T05:54:00.000-08:00

well as most of u already know...i'm the middle of my clinicals...i will only do a wrap up of cgh next friday...so unless u r not dying to know what happens at cgh, stay tuned...

many things have happened this pass few days...some for the better...but sadly as always i remember the ones that thoroughly disappoint(spelling?) me...so shocked to have heard what i heard...especially considering the person who said those words was someone i trusted...then again since that faithful day i doubt i ever trully trusted u again...

well some other time then...my show is about to start...

2005-11-26T22:30:00.000-08:00

crap times infinity....argh!!!!clinicals starts on monday...sigh...i havent even finished cleaning up my room!!!!wanna go shopping soon...wanna buy loads of clothes...sigh going to be broke...

japan pictures

2005-11-26T15:42:00.000-08:00

hey peeps...u guys can view the japan pics on yahoo photos...i set it to public mode so i dont have to invite u guys...have fun

moonflower

2005-11-24T12:02:00.000-08:00

japan trip was extremely wonderful...many breath taking scenes...the food there was pretty good...the soup with the noodles thing was actually nice...i mean the soup that is...the ones on s'pore really cmi...disneyland and universal studios was super fun...plus mt fuji was extremely wonderful...was awing the entire time...plus the hotel that we stayed at mt fuji had a super nice view and we were staring and staring at it during breakfast....

caught harry potter on the day i got back...yea!!!!!!definitely the best potter movie i ever caught...really worth every single cent i paid...actually best movie i've caught this year...then again who knows...wanna catch it again if i have the time...

well need to get going...wanna spend my last few days of freedom...

2005-11-04T21:07:00.000-08:00

really love this singer right now...her name is alana grace...her first single is titled...black roses red...her debut album will be out at the end of the year...

anyway peeps u guys should really catch the sisterhood of the travelling pants...i cried when i wacthed that movie...really know the meaning of friendship and love...it has a wonderful sound track...it has five for fighting's 'if god made you", alana grace's 'black roses red' , chantal kreviazuk's 'these days', shannon curfman's 'sun's gonna rise' and many other wonderful songs...

caught passion of the christ also...felt nausea half the time...it was so freaking cruel and bitter...was crying also...my favourite scene was when this lady walked up to him when he was bleeding and everyone around him were fighting and no one realised it...she took of her scarf and presented it to him and simply said my lord please... he took her scarf and dabbed his bloodied face...the lady took the scarf and cried...

2005-11-04T20:52:00.000-08:00

havent been updating my blog recently...been so busy with stuff at home that i havent had the time to blog...

well bought a really nice pair of shoes over the weekend...it's so freaking nice that i fell in love with it on the spot...my aunt and grand aunt were raving bout how nice it was so i got it...really elegant pair of brown high heels...been wanting to get a brown pair for some time....

havent settled anything for japan trip...still need to get my gloves, winter jacket and scarf...havent changed currency yet...which is actually a good thing cos, the currency keeps on turning into our favour every day...now with one sing dollar u get 69 yen...so that's like a 3 yen gain...well i'm out shoping for japan trip stuff will get myself some pants and tops for both school and clinicals...been cleaning out my closest and packing away really old clothes...will donate them to salvation army...

been really enjoying the food and money collecting...sadly been over eating...so sometimes get stomach ache from over eating...still havent gained weight though...still 48kg...but the appetite is back so as long as i maintain what i take in and take out everything i will remain healthy...

anyway pauline and veronia...congratulations my two dears...happy for both of you

anyway anyone knows any brand of water based mascara and eyeliner? if u guys do do tell me...

lili...yes i'm going japan...u want anything dear?

2005-10-22T22:32:00.000-07:00

so glad that attachment is finally over!!!!so happy but got a few more reports to write...must go back to ttsh to find mdm koo on monday...i feel sorry for her...did so many competencies with her...about 7...she has so many to sign..really sorry...

had a tremendously wonderful time at ttsh...things went so well...was glad...had the chance to work with chia sing, li yi, seok bin, wan zi, herny and sweet2 regine...she's so lady like and sweet...like cotton candy...had loads of fun with the radiographers and we gossip a lot...exchanged views and stories...some of the radiographers gave feed back about my classmates...and they weren't nice ones...

as usual got asked the same qns that i got asked every where i go...am i singaporean?what's my race?what's my religion...they get so excited when i tell them...god knows why...rare breed probably...haha...

the radiographers trully left mark on me...people like billy, racelle, avilla, manful, victor, charlyn, dede and of cos mdm koo...if i ever become a radiographer i hope to be as good as billy...he's really good...really admire him...one of those thinking radiographers...he did this funny hip thing with a patient once and he asked me wat view am i doing?gave him a blur look and answered modified view?his answer...a sacastic right.but actually correctlah.judet's view is a modified view.smiles at me...manful trully left a mark on me cos he asked me a qns at 8.30 on monday morning...was asking me why he repeated his shoulder x-ray...fortunately was able to c y...he nodded his head...correct...then we were practising y scap and everyone commented about my prominent scapula...then one day while i had my head down reading the papers someone noticed my prominent c7-t1 junction...one radiographer commented that it was probably easy to find my landmarks...true enough...bobee palpated for my ASIS and iliac crest and she said yup...very prominent landmarks...easy patient...

bobee has been a tremendous help during my 2 weeks at ttsh...she has been practising radiography for 1 and 1/2 yrs so he practical is super good...she thought me all the methods that u should use in practice but of cos theory wise it wont hold...thanks a lot i trully appreciate it...

met so many ah mas and ah pek at ttsh...was really good cos i get to practise my patient care and transferring skills...i love all the old people...they really make my day...trully love them...maybe it's cos i never met my paternal grandfather and i've an unwell paternal grandmother and i know it's not easy to care for them...

2005-10-16T22:47:00.000-07:00

Found myself today
Oh I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
The voice of reason I forgot I had

All I know is just you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it's written in the sky tonight
So I won't give up

No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong

When I'm standing in the dark
I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me
Seen that ray of light

And it's shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I wont be afraid
To follow everywhere it's taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone

And right now I belong
Took this moment to my dreams
So I won't give up
No I won't break down

Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark

I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me
It doesn't matter what people say
And it doesn't matter how long it takes

Believe in yourself and you'll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart
So I won't give up

No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong

When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around

And I will be strong
Even when it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That someone's watching over

Someone's watching over
Someone's watching over me
Someone's watching over me

2005-10-16T20:46:00.000-07:00

cant wait to finish studying and leave this so called rat hole of a life. leave everything behind. all my worries, my insecurities and my pain.screwed life.

2005-10-15T20:44:00.000-07:00

well one last week of attachment to go...jun and cyn must catch up for lunch so i can tell u the latest gossip...dont wanna blog it herelah...

2005-10-12T22:36:00.000-07:00

attachment

been really busy with attachment.havent had the time to come online for the pass few days...finally found time to start writing my competency reports.i've 6 to write.my goodness.well most are stage b cases so that wont be so tough to write.

will blog more about ttsh over the weekend...

2005-10-06T19:37:00.000-07:00

good news...blogspot finally up n running...had some problems but they managed to sort it out for me...thanks...dont like blogging on friendster...weirdlah...

anyway clinicals in tamp has been absolutely wonderful...y?well cos there's cynthia for one...she's like the most adorable thinglah...ok cynthia dont let ur head swell ok...but it's true...i find u absolutely adorable...always make me smile and laugh...then there's all the wonderfull staff at tampines who have made the experience working there extremely wonderful...plus, we did competency today...so proud of the both of us...will try a few more tmr...then just go back tm ask eunice to sign...

well fasting month has been really terrible...the worst part is that we r only done with 2 days...cant wait for it to be over...my digestive system has gone totally hay wire...haha...well early in the mornig i would feel hungry...but after 10 usually everything is ok and i feel good...a bit sian and tired but can manage...cos there's cynthia there...if solo i think i just die...

well gtg...got prayers to attend...take care peeps...love ya...

2005-09-26T21:33:00.000-07:00

To my prince charming,
I don't know who or where you are at this moment, but I know your out there and I know that I'll meet you one very special day. That will be the greatest day of my life. To know who you are and learn all the wonderful things about you and dreaming of our life together.

I want you to know that it might me years from now when I meet you or I might already know you but I already love you, I always have and I always will.

We'll have our bad days and most definitely have our good days, I don't know what the future will bring, but I promise I will always be there for you no matter what!

Signed, Looking foward to that day

2005-09-25T19:23:00.000-07:00

weekends

well the weekends weren't too bad...friday was a relatively bad day...people were in a bad mood so unfortunately i happened to be at the wrong place at the wrong time...i ended up forgetting lots of things to bring to kenneth's chalet...haha...forgot his birthday present and forgot to bring portable dvd player...sorry ah...present on monday...but trully enjoyed the chalet even though i didnt stay over and even though i didnt eat much...not much of an eater anyway...on the way back to the chalet from tamp ntuc the taxi driver was telling me and des horror stories...i think joycelyn would just die...haha...

spent saturday at home cos my aunt from kl came down for a visit...had fun chit chatting with everyone cos another one of my aunt came down also...haha...then my mum was teasing my aunt about something and she ended up having that dream...i nearly died laughing...haha...stayed up late watching spartan vcd...oklah...not bad show...my sis couldnt understnd it as usuall....too chim for her i guess...then stayed on to watch wrestling but fell asleep halfway...my sis claimed i actuallky talked to her in my sleep anout wrestling...wat the hell...must have been that tired...haha

sunday woke up super late...like 11am...planned to go jb but then something finally visited me this month!!!was super happy i actually said yes2!!!haha...went to perm my hair...haha...will show u all when we meet up...me loving it...cos i get bored of my hair very fast...like to change my hairstyle...will go for a dying session in early january...

mummy promised to buy me an mp3 player next month...will get a creative...either micro or neon...will save up to get myself a new handphone...still undecided about that though...haha...
going out to eat seafood dinner in a bit...

enjoy your clinicals peeps...take care and stay in touch...

2005-09-23T10:35:00.000-07:00

feeling damn fucked up right now...but really trying not to show it...

2005-09-22T19:28:00.000-07:00

ok wanted to blog yesterday but was so dead tired...actually nolah...stayed up so late with my sister playing ps2...got so many things to do didnt do much online last nite...

well exams r finally over...relief?i guess u can say that...not really sure...not expecting to do well at all this sem...happy to clear all papers...As and Bs will be bonuses...sigh...crappy life...

there's still school tmr unfortunately...woke up early today...me, my mum, bro and sis went to the cemetry today...went to clean my grandpa's, 2 great granmothers, great grandfather and aunt's cemetries...was a good experience for me i guess...didnt get to spend time with some of this people...but it felt good knowing that i did something nice for them...

chin has to spoil my weekend by having an e-quiz tmr...oh well...will live...then having chalet to celebrate kenneth's birthday...that will be nice...

my wednesday was spoilt thanks largely to people who do not know how to be professional.i had to miss my shopping trip because of them and stayed in school wasting time...wanna know wat happened?turn up for chalet...

2005-09-18T12:37:00.000-07:00

netball

just came back from my netball tournament...we didnt do well at all...we only fielded 5 players from the actual 7 cos one gal forgot her ic and then most of our players couldnt turn up because of injury...

first game we were trashed 9-1...haha...then we had no choice but to walk over the rest of the games cos our captain had to leave...sigh...but not bad ah...got free polo t-shirt from head...our manager managed to get them to sponsor us...then got $10 allowance and then free macdonalds breakfast then free pick up and send home service...

next activity...24th sep...not sure wat yet...1st oct---children's day!!!!yea...love kids...12th nov---murukuk making demonstration...i really enjoy being active for the cc...they're super nice people man...plus everyone there so english ed...u say lah or mah they stare at u...

haha...oklah more later...going to go teach tuition

2005-09-15T20:03:00.000-07:00

regarding the previous post...haha...was blog hoping...saw it on someone's blog so was playing with it...had many funny quizzes...

anyway realised that my patience for a lot of things have gone down this past few weeks...dont know why...maybe it's exams maybe it's other stuff...sigh...dont need to saylah...shall keep calm...shall take deep breaths...

and can you please come soon i'm irritated waiting for u to come...wondering what is it?easy...gals thing...people who usually get later then me already have theirs...sigh...

cant wait for exams to end...super long weekend...how am i suppse to study...sigh

2005-09-14T10:26:00.000-07:00

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.
You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.
Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.
In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

2005-09-12T21:43:00.000-07:00

since i left jc i havent really taken the effort to write or speak proper english.i still remember the good old school days when i wrote stories in order to improve my english.i love writing very mcuh.sometimes it's hard for me to express wat i need to say in speaking words.i find solace in the words that i write.i may not be sheakspeare or rowling but my words keep me safe.i find sanctuary in books.it's true.my favourite places to visit are the library and the bookstores.there i'm surrounded by countless great authors.many not given the credit they duely deserve.

sometimes when i feel upset about something i usually write out my feelings because i know by doing that i find closure.i come to an acceptance as to why things are the way they are.my mum always tells me that as humans we can merely plan and god will decide.i guess when i'm angry with someone or upset about something i write them out instead of confronting the thing that upsets me.why?simply because i know that once u say something even when u dont mean it u cannot take it back.my mum always reminds me that no matter what happens never hurt another person's heart because when the time comes the retribution from god will be unforgiving.so when i get angry or upset i choose to walk away because i refuse to stand there and say something that i know i will regret.

true some people may say it's cowardice that leads me to do this.but i believe it takes greater courage to walk away from something that will only cause another person pain.

sigh...feeling so depressed right now...and in the middle of exams some more...not good...imaging paper was crap cos firstly i didnt finish and secondly i got a few of my terms all mixed up...stupid little girl...sigh...when i was preparing for this paper told myself that this was the one paper i actually could get A for...but sadly as usual sab has to get distracted by stupid things like tv and god knows what also...you know when my dad tells me off for slacking i trully deserve it u know...i mean no diploma how to get degree...no degree how to go med school...i mean i wouldnt want to be a mediocre doctor(that is if i ever be one)...then everything i studied for on sat and sunday i had to forget...classic man...classic man...well let bygones just be bygones...starting too really hate myself

2005-09-11T14:47:00.000-07:00

hey peeps!!!!micheal buble coming to s'pore...concert at indoor stadium on 10th oct...u guys wanna go????

2005-09-11T01:41:00.000-07:00

exams are starting and as usual i'm getting distracted by all sorts of nonsense that i know shouldnt be distracting me at this critical time.we're half way thru our course.so happy man.but there's a part of me that's really dreading the end of school days.there's a part of me that's not quite ready to grow up yet.still want my daddy and mummy around.

i've come to realise that the older i get equates to them getting older too.was telling cynthia when we were in the car the other day and driving out to fetch someone on my birthday that for the first time in my life i realised that my father's not young anymore.the more i think about it the more guilty i get.guilty about the things i've done that've disappointed them.i sincerely think that all my life i just ride my way thru.i've never reali lived up to my potential.never push myself to the max.especially when it's in the classroom.

i hate disappointing people.i guess in a way i've disappointed my parents greatly.didnt make it to rgs.then in sec sch didnt make it to the tripple sci class.then after o's didnt do well enough to get in2 vj.then in tj didnt do the proper subject combi.a levels didnt do as well as i should.

sigh

2005-09-10T01:26:00.000-07:00

touching story

In the chaos that was Causeway Boulevard in New Orleans last Thursday, one group of survivors stood out: a 6-year-old boy walking down the road, holding a 5-month-old, surrounded by five toddlers who followed him around as if he were their leader.

They were holding hands. Three of the children were about two years old, and one was wearing only diapers. A three-year-old girl, who wore colorful barrettes on the ends of her braids, had her 14-month-old brother in tow. The 6-year-old spoke for all of them, and he told rescuers his name was Deamonte Love.
Thousands of human stories have flown past relief workers in the last week, but few have touched them as much as the seven children who were found wandering together Thursday at an evacuation point in downtown New Orleans. In the Baton Rouge headquarters of the rescue operation, paramedics tried to coax their names out of them; nurses who examined them stayed up that night, brooding.

Transporting the children alone was "the hardest thing I've ever done in my life, knowing that their parents are either dead" or that they had been abandoned, said Pat Coveney, a Houston emergency medical technician who put them into the back of his ambulance and drove them out of New Orleans.

"It goes back to the same thing," he said. "How did a 6-year-old end up being in charge of six babies?"

So far, parents displaced by flooding have reported 220 children missing, but that number is expected to rise, said Mike Kenner of the National Center for Missing and Exploited Children, which will help reunite families. With crowds churning at evacuation points, many children were parted from their parents accidentally; one woman handed her baby up onto a bus, turned around to pick up her suitcase and turned back to find that the bus had left.

At the rescue headquarters, a cool tile-floored building swarming with firefighters and paramedics, the children ate cafeteria food and fell into a deep sleep. Deamonte volunteered his vital statistics. He said his father was tall and his mother was short. He gave his address, his phone number and the name of his elementary school.

He said the 5-month-old was his brother, Darynael, and that two others were his cousins, Tyreek and Zoria. The other three lived in his apartment building.
The children were clean and healthy -- downright plump in the case of the infant, said Joyce Miller, a nurse who examined them. It was clear, she said, that "time had been taken with those kids." The baby was "fat and happy."

"This baby child was terrified," he said. "After she relaxed, it was gobble, gobble, gobble."
As grim dispatches came in from the field, one woman in the office burst into tears at the thought that the children had been abandoned in New Orleans, said Sharon Howard, assistant secretary of the office of public health.

Late the same night, they got an encouraging report: A woman in a shelter in Thibodeaux was searching for seven children. People in the building started clapping at the news. But when they got the mother on the phone, it became clear that she was looking for a different group of seven children, Howard said.

"What that made me understand was that this was happening across the state," she said. "That kind of frightened me."

The children were transferred to a shelter operated by the Department of Social Services, rooms full of toys and cribs where mentors from the Big Buddy Program were on hand day and night. For the next two days, the staff did detective work.

Deamonte began to give more details to Derrick Robertson, a 27-year-old Big Buddy mentor: How he saw his mother cry when he was loaded onto the helicopter. How he promised her he'd take care of his little brother.

Late Saturday night, they found Deamonte's mother, who was in a shelter in San Antonio along with the four mothers of the other five children. Catrina Williams, 26, saw her children's pictures on a web site set up over the weekend by the National Center for Missing and Exploited Children. By Sunday, a private plane from Angel Flight was waiting to take the children to Texas.

In a phone interview, Williams said she is the kind of mother who doesn't let her children out of her sight. What happened the Thursday after the hurricane, she said, was that her family, trapped in an apartment building on the 3200 block of Third Street in New Orleans, began to feel desperate.

The water wasn't going down and they had been living without light, food or air conditioning for four days. The baby needed milk and the milk was gone. So she decided they would evacuate by helicopter. When a helicopter arrived to pick them up they were told to send the children first and that the helicopter would be back in 25 minutes. She and her neighbors had to make a quick decision.

It was a wrenching moment. Williams' father, Adrian Love, told her to send the children ahead.
"I told them to go ahead and give them up, because me, I would give my life for my kids. They should feel the same way," said Love, 48. "They were shedding tears. I said, Let the babies go.' "
His daughter and her friends followed his advice.

"We did what we had to do for our kids, because we love them," Williams said.
The helicopter didn't come back. While the children were transported to Baton Rouge, their parents wound up in Texas, and although Williams was reassured that they would be reunited, days passed without any contact. On Sunday, she was elated.

"All I know is I just want to see my kids," she said. "Everything else will just fall into place."
At 3 p.m. Sunday, DSS workers said good-by to seven children who now had names: Deamonte Love; Darynael Love; Zoria Love and her brother Tyreek. The girl who cried "Gabby!" was Gabrielle Janae Alexander. The girl they called Peanut was Degahney Carter. And the boy whom they called G was actually Lee -- Leewood Moore Jr.

The children were strapped into car seats and driven to an airport, where they were flown to San Antonio to rejoin their parents. As they loaded into the van, the shelter workers looked in the windows; some wept.

The baby gaped with delight in the front seat. Deamonte was hanging onto Robertson's neck so desperately that Robertson decided, at the last minute, to ride with him as far as Lafayette.
Shelter worker Kori Thomas, held Zoria, 3, who reached out to smooth her eyebrows. Tyreek put a single fat finger on the van window by way of goodbye.

Robertson said he doubted the children would remember much of the helicopter evacuation, the Causeway, the sweltering heat or the smell of the flooded city.

"I think what's going to stick with them is that they survived Hurricane Katrina," he said. "And that they were loved."

2005-09-09T15:37:00.000-07:00

feelings right now: i dont know...ok i guess...neutral...haha

i think i'm falling sick...what else is new...still remembered jc yr1...was practically sick the whole time...every other day got something happen...

health now:i feel like i'm having sore throat...wait2...i know i'm having sore throat cos i'm taking medication...sigh...everytime i sick ah it starts with a sore throat...

2005-09-07T22:27:00.000-07:00

ok people beware...emotionally charged entry coming up...

today in a very long long time i felt anger...unbelievable anger...usually i just get irritated and complain...but today my patience was totally pushed to the max...i cannot believe myself...and it's all because i read something...my chest is like so tight right now...i'm holding my breath...god i think i might just get a heart attack...

i really feel like punching something right now...my wall is so going to get it...ok it got it already...ouch...but inside it hurts more...arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #!$@ #$@$ @$@# $@#$ @#%&....

screwed up life

2005-09-06T21:58:00.000-07:00

oooooohhhhhh....just checked creative's website!!!!!the sale this weekend...zen micro 5gb at 249 for first 50 customers!!!!!argh!!!!!!plus all colours available!!!!!help people...help

2005-09-06T21:52:00.000-07:00

ok...i'me going to get micro...now the problem is the 4gb has only 4 colours!!!!black,white,silver and blue(kenneth's one)...argh no lime green!!!!!so which one people????

2005-09-04T20:56:00.000-07:00

need ur vote...

please vote for me...i dont know which one to get...

or

if i get micro it'll be green/orange...if muvo it's pink...haha

saw the products just now at comex...but cant decide ah...haha...the muvo is 5gb at 239...micro is 4gb at 299

2005-09-01T21:52:00.000-07:00

ok some explanations...i guess some people were worried about the last post...

well u c...my old fren called me...his gf changed a lot this past few months...she has started smoking and drinking...very sad...some of us tried to do something but she shuts us out...so we cant do anything...i told him to give her time...maybe she's just experimenting withh that sort of life or something...no point using force on this sort of people...the sad part is that she used to be so decent...so sweet and innocent...oh well a phase of life i guess...

went down to comex just now...it was so damn crowded n i was using heels some more...stupid me...didnt get my mp3 player...will get it some other time...the creative booth was overflowing with people...so stress...yup i actually got stressed...starhub was so crowded also...managed to talk to charlene...wanted to sign up for cable...it's so freaking cheap now...for less than a hundread u can walk away with it man...and the soccer!!!!argh!!!!so cool...i mean i was thinking long term...next year world cup u know...haha...oh well...didnt get to talk to kenneth...they were all so busy...charlene in charge of casheir...not bad...she answered my qns for me...thanks gal...really appreciate it...

anyway started a savings plan with prudential...oklah...70 a month...not much of my allowance to sacrifice...at least i know i'll be saving for real...haha...

anyway turning 20 tmr...yea!!!i guess...haha...i seriously think it's one of those weird ages where in the eyes of the law u pretty much cant do almost everything a 19 yr old cant...strangely the skin on my right leg is peeling...sunburn?cant be rite?i usually get sun burn on the back and that only happened once in my life...

2005-08-31T20:24:00.000-07:00

well i'm turning 20 on friday...big age man...haha...was thinking of where i am and where i wanna go from here...so reflecting on my short term and long term goals...i have this book where i write down my goals and ambitions...every birthday i take it out and look at it...

well this semester has been very testing...especially on my spirit...when bad things comme they trully come in droves...they come an attack u at one go and sometimes u just dont have the will power or strength to handle everything at one go...i'm not as tough as i used to be...i'm just so physically and mentally tired out...school is trully a challenge...frens who have been with me for long have disappointed me...dont know why they have become the people they r now...it saddens me to see them in the state they're in and there's nothing i can do about it cos they've shut me out...

yesterday wasnt a good day...today not bad...god knows wat tmr will bring...let my religion be my guide...peace people

2005-08-30T18:47:00.000-07:00

stayed home today...have been doing a lot of reflecting after what i was told yesterday...we've been friends for so long...sigh...i've been disappointed...trust isn't something easy to gain...sadly, u've lost it...well wat can i say...sigh again

2005-08-30T17:16:00.000-07:00

ok i'm finally doing it...downloading maple...(covers face in hands)...i know2...about time rite?

2005-08-30T15:07:00.000-07:00

had a wonderful time at sentosa yesterday although i didnt get to stay very long...i lost one side of my lenses and still havent had the guts to tell my mum...i guess i'll just replace it when i go out tmr...haha...i guess i've just known that my master eye is actually my left eye cos my vision wasnt blur without my right lense...

cant believe mel wore her nice slippers...her reason:later got meetinglah...must wear a bit formal...haha...such a cute gal...plus while we were waiting for the blue line out, she actually took out her wallet then she said oh yeah ah dont need ez-link...haha...

didnt get to kayak much yesterday...played volleyball after so long...like 1 year already...used to be so active during jc days...but after jc like everything went downhill man...haha...

will go sentosa on the 24th of sep again...haha...going to spend the entire day there...from morning till night...going to catch the musical fountain too...haha...

ciao...

2005-08-27T20:44:00.000-07:00

nice stuff i saw online

super nice adidas bag!!!!

super nice adidas shoes!!!

super nice and super ex rollerblades!!!

i think right now everyone is suffering from chronic poverty...haha...

more later

2005-08-26T16:16:00.000-07:00

stats test is over!!!!haha...so happy...wasnt that bad after all...my first open book test...well the hols r officially here even though got external prac later...nvmlah will make it...soooooo happpppyyyy!!!!!argh!!!!going to catch up with sleep,learn to blade like a pro(haha...cmi), read up all the mags that i've bought but left in one corner...finish watching the dvds people lend me...clean up my room and reorganise my things...make time table to study for exams...watch more movies from videoezy...go shopping!!!!so wanna get myself a pair of levis!!!go for spa treatment....finish reading the devil's teardrop...oh ya the full harry potter trailer is out man!!!!caught it last night!!!!will post up the website soon...

champs league grp fixtures r out

group a
Club Bruges, Juventus, Rapid Vienna, Bayern Munich

group b
Arsenal, FC Thun, Sparta Prague, Ajax Amsterdam

group c
Udinese, Panathinaikos, Werder Bremen, Barcelona

group d
Benfica, Lille, Villarreal, Manchester United

group e
AC Milan, Fenerbahce, PSV Eindhoven, Schalke 04

group f
Olympiakos Piraeus, Rosenborg Trondheim, Olympique Lyon, Real Madrid

group g
Chelsea, Liverpool, Real Betis, Anderlecht

group h
FC Artmedia Bratislava, Inter Milan, Rangers, Porto

2005-08-26T14:51:00.000-07:00

stats paper starting soon...people in the other lab r really struggling...they're staring at their books super hard hoping for the answer to pop out...people r scratching their heads...shit man!!!!it's open book man!!!i'm super dead!!!

2005-08-25T20:25:00.000-07:00

ok i know i should be studying but i'm just too lazy to keep my laptop oneside and use my study table...argh...

well semester is going to end really soon...i'm so freaking glad...then i wont have to travel to yio chu kang from end of sept to end of december...so happy...i can catch up with sleep...go watch movies...get a decent job...will probably work at videoezy...easy job then so near...so wont have to fork out transport and meal money...plus i get to rent movies for free...i mean what more can a gal want...plus i can follow champs league and epl in peace...haha...

i trully belief in reaping wat i sow...so since i didnt sow well for a n p exam, i trully deserve a freaking F!yup...left it too last minute to memorise stuff so i went into exam theatre completely blank...mixed everything up!i should really buck up with the last few weeks i have...keep focus on the task at hand...

met up with veronica today...had a fantastic time chatting and catching up with her...haha...gals talk huh?well gal life isnt easy...will paddle along together...

tmr is the last day of school...then we get a one week reprieve...i god damn well need it...but booked up most days and my brother is under my care while my mum is away...never mindlah, i should be more involved in his life...our time to bond...

oklah that's it...wanna go munch on something...

2005-08-25T20:07:00.000-07:00

havent been online for so many days...busy with tests and exams...cleared my inbox...it was clutered man...

have a few funny stories to tell...will update soon

2005-08-21T20:19:00.000-07:00

2 games in a row for united!!!!fortunes r certainly turning around!!!super cool

2005-08-21T00:50:00.000-07:00

yea!!!!!!my emotional support is home!!!!my sis!!!!love her sooo much but i still want my discman back...

2005-08-20T09:45:00.000-07:00

god blessed me to find you
u walked into my life
u made me whole
u kept me safe

god must have his reasons
for taking you away
one day i know
i will learn to accept

i cried for you
i cried for your 2 girls
i cried for the times you will miss
i cried for the times they will miss

loss is often felt
in this world we share
loss i will learn to deal
but the same can't be said for guilt

guilt at not being there
guilt at not spending more time
guilt at not having you close
guilt for not treating you better

the pain i feel
can never compare
to your girls' pain
to loose their angel

i wanna hold you close
i wanna say goodbye
i wanna say i'm sorry
i wanna ask for forgiveness

that time didn't come
you were taken away
before i could
say goodbye one more time

tears roll down my eyes
while i write this
but i promise to be strong
for the sake of your two girls

this is their time to cry
i will be there
offering words of comfort
and a shoulder

watch over us from above
love us as always
i make this promise
to keep your girls safe

2005-08-17T23:45:00.000-07:00

i really hate having my period.god knows y this month things have been especially cruel.i dont usaully get such terrible cramps.of cos i get cramps but it has never ever been this bad.it's so excruciating at times that i totally zone out cos it likes zaps out ur strength and i totally loose focus of wat i have insight.argh the pain.feeling it now.oh y?

well school has been pretty much the same but for the first time i totally slept in au lecture.i mean i usually fall asleep but i force myself up.but this time really cmi.wah lau i'm blaming it on the cramps.i nearly had a fainting spell in school.but i survived.thank god.haha...but the funny ting i realised about myself is that when i sleep i slide down my chair and i nearly slid down my chair that day...haha...luckily managed to catch myself before i was a total gonner...

school was quite fun today.dont know why.maybe cos i was high.had so many nice massages done for me...i had 2 neck and shoulder massages and one full back massage by a nursing guy.it was super good...haha...then had a hand massage by my fren also....she commented that i was getting thinner and thinner.she was like super worried.kept asking me if i was ok.well ya i am.told her about my knee.but cant remember wat she said about it though...

took photos with von and yan...then with ec...then with veron...really miss veron a lot...but she's happy now...i'm happy for her...love ya gal

ok that's it for now...i'm super tired...goodnite...

2005-08-14T22:27:00.000-07:00

i lost my pencil box...i sms some peeps...if u've any idea do contact me...if u didnt c it also contact me...so i can do process of elimination...argh!!!!bloody hell 2 impt keychains r on it!!!!

2005-08-13T17:23:00.000-07:00

my plans for sat have been ruined...totally ruined...first up woke up super late...i only woke up at 12...ya well that's kind of expected cos i went to sleep at 8am...yup 8am...doing wat u ask?i was trying to watch as many vcds as possible...my bro rented them and he's not around so he told me to return them and me being me...i wanted to watch them first so i had a marathon..my poor butt...oh well...so after i woke up i wnet downstairs...my father just came back from work...shame on me...oh well...had my lunch while watching lilo and stitch and batman...batman looks super young...i dont get y they must keep reinventing this people...so i bathed...yup that late...then went across to return vcds and ran errands for my mum...plans for east coast were shelved cos suddenly everyone had stuff to do and i cant exactly go myself i mean they were suppose to tech me how to blade...so got a new group of frens to go east coast...so going tmr morning...at 9am...anyone wants to come along?so i had nothing to do and was bored to death...so decided to take bus down to popular to get some nice writing pads to answer letters written to me...i mean folscap is like super rude man...but i was dreaming in the bus cos i only had like 4 hrs of sleep so i ended up missing my stop...shit happens...so since i was in katong i went to pocket bowl...the bowl alley in katong shopping centre...bowled four decent games...broke 120 barrier for all my 4 games which is better then the guy next to me who came with all his equipment...me i was in jeans, t-shirt and rented bowling shoes...socks were bought there...

anyway i'm having a bowling competition on the 11th of september...come down n support me if u can...just bowl for the fun of it...if i do well enough apparently i'll represent my constituency...well we'll c how it goes...

and there's going to be an inline skating carnival coming up...will tell u guys more about it when it comes up...during our 1 week break i think...

will blog more tonight...

2005-08-12T22:23:00.000-07:00

another quote from a fren's blog(same fren who i always take quotes from)...haha...but this one quite depressing ya...

"...determined to put my happy face on.There's no point worrying about things.Worrying never changes the outcome.It justs makes the waiting worst.Isn't it strange that when you're miserable you really let yourself wallow in it?but when you're happy, you're so worried that you're going to end up miserable again,you don't let yourself enjoy it.It should be the other way round.You should glory in being estatic and when you're totally pissed off look forwrd to being over the moon again.However this world is full of pessimists,and I know I'm one of them.Why be optimistic and end up dissapointed,when you can be pessimistic and perhaps be pleasantly surprised?I think i need to change my outlook in life, and actually enjoy happiness when I get it instead of worrying about fleeting it may or may not be...The only thing i suppose I can do is resolve not to let everything get to me so much.Think more positively.That's what I'm gonna do.."

hmm...she's been posting a lot of weird stuff this past few weeks...I just haven't had the time to ask her yet...such a terrible fren i am...

i guess i've changed a lot this past semester...i haven't been taking my studies as seriously as I should...haven't been doing well...certainly below my expectations...will resolve to work harder...i guess it's because classes r so long now...from 9am to mostly 5pm...at times it ends after 8...so by the time i get home i'm so tired that i end up bathing and sleeping...i dont even pack my bag at night anymore...so unlike me...and my notes r just left on the window seal...i dont put them properly anymore...it's like there's no time and i'm chasing every second down...extremely unhealthy...haha... will work harder...become a better person

oh well...life's short...i'll take it as it comes and i'll deal with it as it comes...so love ur life...it's a precious gift from god...u always have a choice...so it's up to u to choose the path which is right and the path which is easy...i mean come on man...wat's life without obstacles right?it makes it all the more challenging and fun...

anyway i just want my parents to know that i'm extremely grateful for everything u've done for us.u guys and ur money saving ways so that all 4 of us can afford higher education.i'm forever grateful for the sacrifices the 2 of u make so that the 4 of us can own the things we need.i love the both of u very much and i make a promise to ensure u guys will have a good life after daddy retires.

have a wonderful weekend ahead...i'm certainly going to have mine...take care

2005-08-09T23:40:00.000-07:00

trip to sentosa...

woke up super early today...well it is a public holiday u know...then again didnt sleep at all on friday nite...just laid there in bed and closed my eyes...sis and bro left for kl already...sigh...she took my discman and left me with hers...the bane of having an mp3 discman...wat on earth am i suppose to listen to?

showered, got dressed and headed to eunos mrt...my fren picked me up from there...headed out to another frens place to pick her up and off to sentosa we went...it's so convenient to drive to sentosa...well it pretty much looks the same though...except sunset bay...we parked at the beach carpark and walked down to sunset bay...so there was a nice cool breeze and we were enjoying our walk...taking photos and the inevitable had to happen...it rained...at first didnt really care cos it was only drizzling...then it got heavier...then i realised i had new stuff on me and i started running for the shelter...so u can imagine this crazy loony bin running with a shoe bag with her left hand under her t-shirt shouting my slippers, my slippers...and guess wat?everybody decided to seek shelter too...i mean like duh rite sab...ok so we sat there...being entirely soaked and me trying to dry myself off with wat little tissue we had...my entire hair was wet...easylah...just comb everything back...so we sat there waiting for the rain to stop...looking at people...where on earth are the hunks and babes?my fren was critiquing girls in bikinis...sigh...

after the rain stopped we headed to carlsberg tower and had our lunch at sarpinos...not badlah...but i could only manage 1 small slice and a quater of another slice....and we sat there...looking around...chatting away...so many tourists man...money making island...haha...after that we headed back to sunset bay...at first we wanted to cross this bridge before it started to rain but then at the spur of the moment we decided to go kayaking...quite fun...havent done it in quite a while...it felt so good to see that my stroking technique has not failed me...my fren got sea sick so the 2 of them stoped i continued to kayak and it was great...solo time for myself...just me, the sea and the sun...enjoying the simple pleasures of life...

then came the bad part...i was lazy to paddle in so i thought of just letting the wave take me in...it did alrite...so oklah everything was fine...i got off...slipped my paddle into the holder...then it happended...one strong wave was all it took...i lost my balance and fell...the kayak hit against me...i stopped moving...i guess shock...never happened before...then the next wave came...haha...guess that woke me up...got up and held on to the rope thing...dragged my kayak and dumoed it there...walked over to my frens...sigh...talking2 then i looked down my legs and blood was flowing...shit man...went to shower and asked for plaster...but no point...long wound...so sat with my frens...hoping to dry out...watched beach volleyball...then showered again cos blood not stopping...sigh the pain...so now bruise on left thigh and arm...cuts on right and left leg...

2005-08-06T22:08:00.000-07:00

had a wonderful day today...ok maybe some sort of wonderful day...woke up quite early today...drove my mum to work and parked the car...picked up my x-ray form...took a bus down to sata...quite fast...everything was done in half an hour...results out in 2-3 days(fingers crossed)...but strangely looking at my films i sort of fell in love with my legs...haha...i think i have nice bones...oh well they r mine...

after that headed down to jurong point to meet my fren...while waiting did a bit of shopping...got my body shop body scrub for only 9.90 plus it's 2 bottles not 1...super cool...then also bought oceanous body spray cos it's only 9.90 and it comes in a plastic bottle wonderful for touch ups...managed to get my watch altered...the woman charged me 3 dollars...i guess that's ok...so now got another watch to wear...was browsing at bum equipment...sigh jeans cutting not very nice...really wanna get a jeans with nice cutting...headed to levis shop...yup they make good jeans and i can c y people pay that kind of price...the jeans really make u look good...haha...but dont wanna waste moneylah...

met up with my fren...we bought lunch to eat back at her hostel...had my chicken rice...have been having cravings for it for super long...sadly school doesnt sell it...sobs...while i had my lunch she bathed and got dressed...she was having hostel bash that night...super cool...i fell in love with her hostel man...but then again if i had gone to uni i wouldnt have met u wonderful people right?u loose some u get some...god's fair...she so neat compared to her room mate man...

after that we headed down to parkway to meet the third musketeer(spelling?)...havent met those two wonderful gals for so long...my fren wanted to buy a bag pack...dont think she'll find one there...we were at royal sporting house checking out bags and new tops for workouts...must say reebok has certainly improved their ladies wear...it didnt help that the reebok front zipped jacket that i saw with yvonne was there...sigh...i think it's 49 something so like 50lah...will save to get that...oh well i do own reebok running shoes and a reebok coin pouch...but of cos "the brand with 3 stripes" (old motto) aka adidas (new motto: impossible is nothing) still rocks...but their stuff r not cheap!!! do u know ladies clothes for adidas r more expensive then their male clothes...terrible...but their current line of ladies jackets r not nice...got stripes at the weirdest places then still got the thumb hole...so weird...i'm not saying just because it's expensive ok...it's really ugly...i hope stella macarteny had nothing to do with it...

she's the daughter of a beetle and she now designs adidas range of ladies clothes...but her swim wear is damn hot...too badlah dont have the body for it...oh well i'll live...atheletic world champs coming up...i'm supporting paula radcliffe...marathon runner...she is the world record holder...sadly she collapsed at athens...hope she wins...strangely she has never won a single world title...swimming world champs have ended...i think australia's swimming have made tremendous improvements...especially the ladies...my fav female swimmer finally won an individual world title...and she got 3 at one go...haha...phelps trully flopped...didnt live up to expectations...thorpe didnt attend...

so at parkway we didnt really shop/browse...i had to rush home for wedding dinner...just had a drink at mac cafe before i headed home...so showering in the evening i decided to try my body scrub...my skin is a bit smoother...then again i wasn't born with good skin...had skin problems throughout my life...doesnt help that i dont wait for sweat to disappear before bathing...so i end up with white spots that have darkened throught out my life...so sad...i'll live...

to end on a positive note...i'm really happy that national day is coming...i'm proud to be singaporean and i know that no matter where live takes me...singapore will still be the place i call home...

to all my family and frens...i love u all so much...thanks for being part of this wonderful journey of my life...

hugs and kisses peeps...

2005-08-03T19:20:00.000-07:00

beautiful quote from fren's blog...

Life doesn't have to be so difficult. Sometimes happiness is right in front of you. All you have to do is open your eyes.

i guess it's about appreciating wat u have...

tag board is finally up!!!!

2005-08-02T20:19:00.000-07:00

had a pleasant day today...school was not so taxing cos ended relatively early...was done at 3pm...me, von and wei liang headed down to tampines...wei liang was drifting in and out of sleep during the entire journey...me and von were talking crap the whole time...she was telling me amusing stories about her parents...my god they're damn cute...

wei liang headed home at tamp...my tupperware is with him...haha...thanks a lot man...bought a number of things at tm...bought 3 tops and a skirt...and a coin pouch...but one of the tops is this halter...so must wear jacket or something over...but both the salesgirl and von say look nice on me and it felt comfortable so i got it...

well peeps hope u guys liked the muffins...

2005-07-31T10:46:00.000-07:00

i've come to realise that these pass few days i've learnt a lot about myself...i've realised that it's ok to say no and that i shouldn't be afraid to say no...sure someone is going to get upset but saying no now is going to save me and the other party more heartbreak in the future...if u r uncomfortable about something dont do it cos there's no point...enjoy life it's too short...

to my dear fren, it's ok to like someone...it's ur heart and ur life...dont let people be the judge of ur life...make peace with urself...love urself as much as god does...take it a day at a time...if it's meant for the both of u to be together forever no one and i mean no one can stop u two...i just want u know that despite misgivings of others i'll always stand by u cos i'm ur fren...if wat u r doing makes u happy i'll be there with u...if u should fall i'll promise to catch u and i'll never say i told u so...love u loads...

2005-07-29T23:34:00.000-07:00

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Fucking high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

this r the lyrics to james blunt you're beautiful...i think the song is absolutely beautiful...bitter sweet...my advise is...if u trully like someone take that chance...it's always best to try...dont live with regrets...
enjoy the weekends

driving

2005-07-29T14:23:00.000-07:00

i passed my driving!!!!haha...

bitchy me

2005-07-27T20:29:00.000-07:00

i dont wanna be a bitch about stuff but i've come to realised that some people have a harder time getting a grasp on reality...i guess maybe it's my fault tat i'm not more persistent or more brutal when i do stuff..well wat's the point of worrying my head over it...more impt things on my mind...

going for x-ray on saturday...when i thought about i i realised i kept rubbing my knees more...guess there's a part of me that's worried that something might be wrong...and there's a part of me that knows something is wrong cos i'm only 19 and my knees r hurting...silly me...i actually teared up...so wish me luck...hopefully things will go well

ok2

2005-07-26T18:03:00.000-07:00

ok2...i think there was misinterpretation(correct spelling?) of my last blog entry...no2...it wasnt about a boy...if u read it correctly the word fren was there...anyway...i had an emotional draining relationship with my fren but we managed to sort out everything so i feel good about it already...

the former year 3s came back for graduatin already and i swear i had a case of dejavu...i was asked the same question again for which i've already made clear my answers...so yup2...

anyway woke up this morning with a migraine(correct spelling?)...sigh...terrible...having more headaches this past few days...so i guess it's a signal to slow down and relax...will start my sports activities next week...

driving test this friday morning...my instructor fetching me at home at 7.25am...haha...so early...but i'll live...usually up by 6.30 for school anyway...all the best to me...

anyway me taking part in a bowling comp...it's in oct...couldnt take part in the sch category cos having exams in sept...so taking part in open category...haha...that's going to be fun...will update more when the time comes...

cards on the table

2005-07-24T14:17:00.000-07:00

so i've laid my cards on the table and tis is wat i get...so i guess 2 u that's wat being a fren is...tsk2...how did i even let u in2 my life...thank god my parents taught me tolerance and acceptance...to me u r just something passing by and i'll have to deal with u...when the time comes and we part our ways i can't say i'll miss u nor can i say u were worth having in my life...so the warning has been given...the outburst might come...

wat did i do wrong?

2005-07-22T23:07:00.000-07:00

shaz and bone i really miss the 2 of u a lot...no matter how screwed up life is u 2 are always there for me...we've been through so much together from sec 3...the fact that our relationship is still going strong is cos we trully enjoy each others company and that god has trully blessed me to have the 2 of u in my life...cant wait to meet up and take pics with u 2...

u caught up alright

2005-07-21T20:45:00.000-07:00

to all my friends out there take care of urself...i think the flu bug is around...both me and dad r sick...older bro and sis were sick already...it's amazing that my mum isnt sick...she usually gets away with it u know...

i think i should rest more and just stop when my body tells me...it's not strong u know...should take care of myself more...the warning signs were there but i chose to ignore them...well i guess i did get wat i deserve...it doesnt help that the days r long and i dont get enough sleep anymore...sigh...oh well i'll live...

but taking time out has been a good thing...managed to just slack around and reflect on stuff...really going to miss harry potter when the seventh book comes out...i guess it has been around me for sometime and i've gotten used to it...so it ending is like saying goodbye to an old fren...

resting at home also has helped me think a lot about other stuff and i've come to accept that some things are just not within my power of control...i mean it would be wonderful wouldnt it if life goes according to plan...but then again where's the excitement and fun of it all...i guess it's best to accept and tolerate...i like doing that...there r some things that i dont like and i'll just get angry and upset but then just give me 5 minutes and i'll be ok...i guess that's how i control my anger...let it all boil up and then simmer...eventually it'll settle...just like when u r cooking something...i like making mistakes cos i know i'll learn from them and the worst part about me is that i never forget...

back home

2005-07-19T19:09:00.000-07:00

i'm back home now...ate my dinner now blogging and checking the usual stuff...after this going to shower then print out the stuff for group project...sigh cant believe they're burdening us with projects...i hate projects cos of the time needed to research and put things together...plus now time table super crap...argh!!!my days r like 9-5 for almost everyday except fri when i'm in sch from 9-8...so titring...by the time i reach home i'm too tired and no energy to do anything...sigh...

falling sick

2005-07-17T20:17:00.000-07:00

ok i'm seriously not feeling well...having a headache...i guess 2 days of little sleep is catching up on me...got home at 3am last night by cab of cos...so fast reach home already...haha...practically no traffic...damn i as so tired i was walking with my eyes closed...maybe that's how drunk people walk huh?

the internet on the laptop is down and i'm struggling with this keyboard...pris me got the brown shades.my god they're huge...but nice man...

haha...didnt have time to perm my hair over the weekend...i think i'm getting paranoid but i think someone's trying to avoid me...not sure...will see how it goes...ok headache2...argh...

finish reading the harry potter book already...haha..so happy...i practically jumped fromt the 2nd floor to reach the gate in 10secs when the postman rang the bell...so impressive...i'm usually dragging myself down the stairs...didnt have time to curl my hair...sadly...will do it after behavioural sc project and driving test is over...

was telling pris about the book...haha pris i'll wait man...

apple of my eye...

2005-07-16T08:00:00.000-07:00

is finally back...he looks so skinny...like he lost 5 kg or something...then his upper lip is cracked...probably due to the hot weather there...and best of all he actually told me he went on a vegan diet and he survived!!!!haha...i would have started throwing a tantrum right there and then...haha...so harry potter is finally out!!!!woooohoooo...waiting for the book to be delivered...best part it's raining super heavy now...haha...woke up early to welcome potter...didnt have much sleep last night...

anyway feeling so much better after i slept for like 5 hours...cant continue sleeping cos i guess body used to early mornings already...well then going to get ready so once my book comes i can go out...

enjoy ur weekends peeps...c u guys on monday...

time for small sacrifices

2005-07-12T21:04:00.000-07:00

i guess i wont be joining u guys in bangkok...sorry...i dont think i should impose anymore financial burden on my parents...they're sending 2 kids overseas to study...plus there's still my younger brother who has a far way to go... so i shouldnt be asking for holiday trips and stuff.but my aunt says she'll take me to a spa in indonesia...she says it'll cost $120 from top to toe including travelling expenses.maybe less...that i can afford on my own...she's also going penang.take budget carrier from senai airport in malaysia.so she says S$100 enough for whole trip.probably another $100 spending money.definitely wont shop there.the last thing will be my handphone...dont think getting something cool already will probably get something that's normal...so there wont be a second car...was thinking of asking for a second hand one...but i know i shouldnt...sigh...wat to do, parents will sacrifice everything for their children so it wont kill me to be a bit considerate...they already spent so much on me...my laptop and driving lessons costs about $4250 in total...there are some people who dont even have that kind of money...my mum wants me to go rebond my hair she says it'll look nicer...sigh i dont know...i checked with the usual aunty that i go to...she'll charge me 120...(cut, treatment and rebonding)...so i guess i'll go there...ok need to start saving.

and there's like so many things i want...i wanna get another pair of jeans and i wanna get the last 2 dan brown books...sigh.and i saw 2 tennis rackets that were super nice...barbolat was $90...wilson was $50...but the wilson one was super light but the rim thinner...but should be ok for me cos i play accuracy not power...ok...must limit myself to 4 movies a month and only on weekdays...must pass my driving the first time so my parents can stop paying for my lessons...must get better results to pull my gpa to at least 3.5 if i even wanna try to apply for medicine or they'll probably just throw the application form back in my face and say...wat?this dumb want to try...sigh!!!

...

2005-07-09T12:43:00.000-07:00

ok totally tired and drained now...slept a lot last night...felt really tired...my dad said it's probably because of the blood donation...but this morning feel better...just slight headache...ok decided on wat phone to get already...it'll be the sony erricsson T630...like von and des phone...y u may ask...well i dont need an mp3 player, radio or high tech camera...cos my discman has both a radio and mp3 functions...i already got digital cam so dont need to waste money to get an expensive phone...the phone will cost me 245...without plan...not badlah...

...

2005-07-07T05:21:00.000-07:00

good news...london won the bid to stage the olympics

bad news...it just got attacked by terrorists...

brownies available on monday...watching news now

boys

2005-06-27T17:12:00.000-07:00

3 things worthy of mention

yesterday afternoon...i was online...somebody(dont need to say name lah) said 2 things that shocked me

i miss ur brownies
when i said i'll probably wait another 6 years for things to settle down b4 i think of myself....he siad so maybe 6 years time i shall try again...

last night went out with my mum and bro to the fruit shop nearby...when i was walking back...i dont noe y but my heart told me to turn to the right...and i did...there was a canadian pizza delivery boy there...he wore glasses much taller than me...looks my age or maybe slightly older...y is he worth mentioning...he was super cute with clear complexion...haha...first cute guy i've rememberd seeing and worth mentioning since december

this morning when i went to school i saw a really pretty boy...my goodness...he was really pretty...i felt ashamed of myself...

so now i'm depressed sigh...

confused

2005-06-23T22:38:00.000-07:00

ok peeps...how many reports do u think i should write?so far i've only done 4...i scared i do too many then they're not good and i'll get a bad grade but on the other hand i'm afraid if i dont do anymore then he'll think i've been slacking my live away at esh...argh...help...

anyway maybe over the weekend wen i'm free i shall put up some pics i've taken...wanna show u people my life in pictures i guess...

falling in love with...

2005-06-22T17:08:00.000-07:00

ESH!!!wat were u thinking?i love the pplace sooo much...i get so much freedom and liberty...i've become a confident radiographer...i do all sorts of general cases...it doesnt matter wat age they are...i have patients as young as 3...quite the expert in doing kids x-rays...and they always have cool and funky names...and some of them so cute...will i feel pain?is there anything wrong with me?...so adorable...if they weren't sick i would've kissed every single one of them...cant wait to have my own...and they so cute u know...i always tell them can u see aunty's camera...u must look at the camera ok or else later ur photo not nice...ok smile for me and say cheese...they really do...sooo cute...i'm in love...hehe

growing up

2005-06-20T19:10:00.000-07:00

i think in the past 2 weeks i've grown up more than ihave in the past 2 years...i've seen how people stab each other in the back, i've seen how people bitch about one another, i've seen how people tell lies...when i see this happening, i take a step back and i wonder do i even wanna grow up?do i even wanna work?where i know the politics would be incredible...this past 2 weeks i've thought a lot about my life...where i'm going after i get my diploma?where i'm gonna work?basically wat am i gonna do with my life...i know if i wat i dream doesnt become a reality i'll regret it for the rest of my life...so where am i heading?

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2005-06-19T08:40:00.000-07:00

wendy hoped u had a blissfull birthday...ur present is like super ready so excited to give it to u...lame right?i really like it...hope u like it to...haha...well von tay's birthday coming too...tmr in fact...need to pass her her present also...haha...
now eating breakfast while blogging...eating mcv's...bought it a few days ago and realised that i bought it when i opened my cupboard...haha...oh well plans fo today:
-going tampines to buy lead markers...argh!!!god knows where they went to...
-going to visit times...dan brown's books are at 35% off!!!haha...patience is truly a virtue...
-going to watch hitler vcd and return my vcds...
-going to settle my hip competencies...editing here and there...